Life is Pain

Life is Pain
but they say it can't rain all the time

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Diet morning of day 5

Time is flying by although I was bored as hell all day yesterday. I didn't want to work so I was left with very little to do, especially since Ms.Spain was stuck at work all night and we couldn't video conference.

I started this morning with the soy vegan chorizo (1 link is about 7-8 inches long and 1-1.5 inches in diameter), about 4 egg's worth of egg whites scrambled, and a handful of soy cheddar "cheese", with a dash of hot sauce. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM it was sooooooooooooo good. I had to fight hard not to inhale it but at the same time I am feeling that maybe I wasn't quite ready for "processed" food. I should have maybe waited another day or so. Oh well.

We'll see how I'll feel today and how long feeling full from this will last.

Ta.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Day 3 of diet.

Here we are.. day 3. Starting to feel a little bit better.. not so woozy anymore but darn hungry. it was very difficult to walk the isles at Whole Foods with all the yummy things that are available and on display. I got me a small cup of hot organic split pea soup and oh it was sooooo goood. Since it was a small portion (at least historically for me), I ate it very slowly and indulged in all the subtleties of the flavors. Split pea soap was the best that they had for me right now (least carbs in any form).

I avoided, as much as possibly, to buy anything with even pure cane sugar in it, or even dextrose (maltodextrin - a corn or potato derived long-chain carbohydrate).

Just for shits and giggles here's what I bought today:

"Pure" 's Blond Macaroons - organic coconut "cookies" with no sugar or carbs added for next week
"Pure" 's Grawnola - sort of granola chunks, also for later next week.
1 packet of Miso soup with seaweed - the only brand I found with no dextrose added.
2 cans of split pea soap with organic german mustard
Cans of dolphin-friendly wild caught albacore tuna and red Alaskan sammon and tongol tuna
Some Italian dressing for the spinach I got yesterday from Sam's
A bag of bing cherries
small box of grape tomatoes
4 kiwi
4 red apples
bunch of bananas - mainly to mix with the whole milk Bulgarian acidophilus and maybe with shakes.
Red small grapes - I'm having some right now.. little bombs of flavor; so powerful
A cantaloupe melon
small box of blueberries to mix with the shake
2 small jars of egg whites to go with the soy chorizo and soy/rice cheeses I got for breakfast starting maybe Tuesday or Wednesday of next week.
3 bottles of Kombucha; a Chinese cultured tea
1 bottle of Pomegranate juice.

That's it. My goal is and has been to avoid all carbs not derived from the veggies or fruit I eat or have eaten. The shakes provide with more than adequate amount of long-chained carbs for energy. It is merely a matter of breaking the habit and addiction for processed white sugar and other forms of short-chained carbs. I am constantly hungry but I am eating and eating a lot. It is just my body trying to trick me into feeding it what it's used to. It has to find an alternative source for energy and stop storing fat.

On Friday night my blood pressure shot up through the roof as my body was realizing the shock of lacking sugar. My face was as red as a Yule ornament and there was this uncomfortable pressure behind my eyes and in my sinal cavities. Pretty common occurrence, actually, and not something to worry too much about.

I did a 5-hour glucose test at a hospital a year and a half ago, when I was having bad bouts of low blood sugar induced by my poor diet. This, of course, is one of the early indicators and signs of diabetes and a flash of light to change your diet. I did fine for a while but dropped it like a bad habit. Well anyway you go to the hospital in the morning having not eaten or drunk since the previous night. You drink a glucose mix and they take your blood and a urine test every 30 minutes; normally only for 3 hours but I wanted to do 6 from a book I had read about low-glucose, and they settled on a 5-hour one. Well by around the 4th hour, having already gone through shakes, shivers, cold sweat, and tremors and what ever else, my blood pressure started to shoot up.. I actually had to stay an extra hour after we stopped taking blood and urine because it wouldn't go down. It finally started dropping around the 6th hour to the point where they released me. I wasn't very worried since I knew what it was all about, as was my physician when I saw him the following day, but ER docs wanna pump drugs into you to bring the pressure down. I was wise to decline them and to just wait for the pressure to go down.

Ta.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Time to turn over a new leaf - Day 1.

I have finally reached the point where I can no longer look at myself in the mirror. It is time to pounce it action and to reclaim my body. I made a decision last night during my two hour commute home that I was going to start eating less and healthier. This also means starting to take supplements to get the ball rolling.

I've put on quite a bit of weight in the last 2 years having gone through two breakups in that time and having eaten partly out of depression. Also, my activity levels have consistently decreased over the last 12 years and my metabolism has slowed.

I used to play Football and work out/lift weights 4-5 times a week on top of that. I was even in the Junior National Team for my country 3 times; I played Inside Linebacker and sometimes Iron-Manned offensive line as a guard.. I'm even responsible for breaking someone's thigh bone by doing a crab block on him with the Center :P It was quite unintentional, though, and the victim was actually a semi-friend with us and a future team mate.

I've gone from that, to just working out, but when I moved to the US, I began framing and that was very hard work. So eventually working out kind of petered-out, as well. Since then I've also moved to easier work/jobs that burns considerably less calories.

I've gone from rock-climbing 4 times a week to not having done it in years. I did Kendo for 8-months twice a week but busy schedule also terminated that love. It was really harsh on my feet as climbing was harsh on my hands and arms. I'm built too much like a linebacker to really ever be really good at either.

Before and during the beginning phases of Tango I was doing Ballroom dancing 3-5 times a week. That dropped eventually in favor of Tango.. the form of dancing that burns the least calories of the dances, lol.

So today.. and the last few years.. dancing Argentine Tango has really been my only exercise.
Now.. dancing is and can be good exercise but not alone and by itself. But busy schedule, tight budget, etc, all conspire against trying to start another program or activity. 4-5 years ago I bought a few year membership to Bally's and I went like 6 times in 2 years. I won't waste money like that again knowing that on a very short notice I might spend half the month out-of-state and on the road.

So I've decided to start a diet that initially will be built on the back of Myoplex shakes. I used the protein shakes when I was still working out and out of the many different brads I always liked these the best. I also intend to only buy groceries I never buy or that go bad if I do.. vedgetables and fruit. I have the interest and the motivation to burn off what I've put on as quickly as possible. Later down the road I intend to reinstitute more physical activities to assist in this goal. For right now, though, I need to accomplish the weight loss by way of my diet. Get back on the schedule of eating small and often.. 5-7 times a day versus what I've been doing last few months.. eating only once or twice a day and then gorging myself with crap.

And what has really bugged me the most about my diet and weight gain is that I know how good I look and feel when I am in shape.. and I also know exactly what to eat but I always revert back to the American TV-culture-diet. When I was playing football I even went through weeks of measuring everything to the gram to figure out what my intake was and to figure out how many calories I was burning each day. Back then it was 2,600 calories to maintain muscle and to slowly burn fat. These days I might pound in 5,000 calories in a day, easy.

I'm 6'-2" and currently weight 240 lbs. Now, all my life I've been outside the "normal" weight for someone my height and that is mostly due to muscle and bone density. I could never weight 180 or under and never have. I did weigh 190-195 when I was thin(ner) and much younger and I was a lean machine.

I believe that today with the muscle mass, or rather lack of it, my ideal weight would be between 200 and 210 lbs. I don't care, per se, how much I weigh as long as that weight is in muscle, but that isn't and is not going to be the case anytime in the near future. Muscle outweighs fat cells by a ratio of 9 to 5.

I thought about starting heavy and just doing shakes but I won't and shouldn't do more than 2 myoplex shakes per day or I'll be overloading on protein and that is bad too. I just need to make every other mean a banana/apple, etc. The first few days and the first week will be the hardest.. I remember when I did a 3-day fast and worked myself into it for a week by limiting my input and went completely organic and veggies and fruit only, and found out that after a certain amount of time things get easier. The 3rd day of the fast is also the best feeling one.. I didn't want to do a longer fast as I needed lots of calories and energy those days to support my work style and schedule. I, of course, ruined the benefits of the fast by breaking it with a huge meal of eggs, sausage, and pancakes >.< Oh well.

Feeling a little woozy right now and it's probably from starting heavy with the metabolism boost that has caffeine in it this morning. Caffeine from like soda never does anything for me and has never for example kept me up at night, but taken in an empty stomach can and has in the past put me in a weird flux. I tried some caffeine pills once to try and stay awake after a milonga in Denver for the hour and a half drive home but those made me seriously sick - I was hungry and dehydrated after the milonga. I'm actually online right now just to settle in on the feeling and let the shake I had an hour and a half early settle in and do it's job before heading down to the basement for work. I'm up in the mountains doing some trim carpentry in a house I trimmed out a year and a half-2 years ago. A little sidejob project. Certainly the thin air contributes to my feeling as well. First day is always a little off at an elevation of 10,000 feet above Sea Level.

Now.. the trick is to keep this diet going for the next few months is going to be a bear of a challenge. I hope to get the support I need to keep at it - or better yet.. quick results to keep me motivated. We'll see how much 'middle-age' has changed my metabolism.

Ta.

It's Friday but not an Aloha one

Been up in the mountains last two day.. Heading back up there in a few hours after a chiropractic adjustment and another of those Active Release Technique rub-downs.

My AC unit smells like someone is smoking right outside.. wonder if I'm burning the bearings, lol.

It's been hot here.. mid to high 90's.. even peaked past 100 just south of here.. and I'm trying to keep this wee dark house at 72.. it's usually 85 in here if it's 95 outside..especially right by 3 running computers; they put out some heat.

Pleasure trip. I'm making a pleasure trip purely for tango back to the East Coast next month. Found $99 tickets each way and with tax that's still under $240.00. This is only the second time ever I've made a trip purely for tango that wasn't for a tango festival, per se.

Trying to see if I can also get to DJ during this trip to assure high music level :)

My left arm and hand are constantly tingling. Been doing so ever since that first ART appointment I had on Monday. Quite annoying, it is, I can assure you. But he did pop the shoulder and that did increase the range of motion a little bit. He said that if by 4 or 5 appointments there isn't a noticeable difference then that technique won't work. At that point it better have worked since I will have paid enough to fly twice to dance with Ms.Spain and back (at the current web-only buy early enough in advance tix prices I found).

Denver milonguero festival is also only 5-6 weeks away.. can't be having a sore-ass shoulder again then.

I'll be driving to Wichita Kansas either just before my E.Coast trip or right after. Got a job there. The same builder wanted to do two homes on the same trip but they don't seem to get the homeowner to make any decisions.. or understand I have a 6-8 week lead-time.

Oh well. Got to take off.. Chiro in 40 mins.

Ta.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Yucky Breakfast

I just had a bowl of "Bear Natural's Granola". The bag was unopened but was swollen with air inside. I didn't check the date on it but I did check to see if the soy milk I used was still good, which it appeared to be. But the granola tasted like I was eating tree bark and I actually sort have eaten tree bark having worked with wood as long as I have. It must have gotten heated up and gone bad somehow. My kitchen can get so hot in the summer that for example if I left some butter on the countertop, which stays hard and solid in the winter in the same spot, melts to a point where it's running all over and I've got a lake of butter on the table >.<

Sucks not to have choices for food at home but the solution isn't going shopping either. Last time I did.. of those groceries... an entire 12-pack of eggs and a big bag of grapes have gone bad.. probably the cheese too. Great portion of what I bring home that's fresh goes bad either because I go out of town or because I eat out or because I simply don't feel like cooking.

Blah.

Go Now

I mentioned this 1995 movie to Ms.Spain the other night, so naturally I had to watch it again myself last night. It is a very touching movie about a man who develops symptoms of (and the disease itself) Multiple-Sclerosis, right after having fallen in love and moved in together with a new girlfriend. I remember when I myself acquired the movie it took some searching and finess and it was only available on VHS. For more information here is a link to it: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0113184/
The user's review of the movie is not quite accurate as it is the guy who kicks the woman out but being that she is in-love, stands outside the apartment in a torrent cold down pour until he breaks down and let's her back in (into his heart).
I would fancy getting it on DVD because most DVD releases come with captions, and the brittish/scottish dialect is quite thick in places and it's hard to get all the subleties in the conversation.

The same lead actress is in another one of my most favorite movies, Still Crazy. That one is about a 70's "excess" rock band that gets back together in the 90's for a reunion gig, and all the trials and tribulations that go with that endeavour. A very funny movie with a soundtrack song that is absolutely fabulous, called "The Flame Still Burns". The soundtrack is extremely hard to find as it has been out of print for nearly a decade and I've yet to manage to obtain it myself. I did however, luckily, find the MP3 for the aforementioned song from a Japanese website.

And on that note.. I'll just "bobble" away :)

Friday, July 13, 2007

Friday - tired

For some reason I did not take the pain meds before going to bed... I couldn't sleep well all night but rather tossed and turned all night to try to get comfortable... every movement was felt in the shoulder - it's been aching all day long now, even after taking Norco and Aleve. Fking sucks.

Closer to morning

I decided to watch the movie "Closer" again, since I wasn't feeling so tired at midnight.
That movie is such a mind fuck even just to watch.

I had to get up, though, because I didn't feel like I could fall sleep in the basement tonight.
I was hot and uncomfortable; going to sleep in the upstairs bedroom that has an A/C unit in it.
It's not THAT hot... but I didn't for some reason feel like taking my shirt off.

I also had hoped to have had something more insightful to comment about the movie, but all of that seems to have drained out of me on the way upstairs.

My trapezoid and rhomboid muscles seem to have released their deathgrip and the pain has clearly moved inside my shoulder. My theory is, that I did something, or something happened to it during the Denver Tango festival or right after, and long work days on the East Coast worsened things, and my muscles cramped up to protect the injured shoulder. Long dance festivals have always caused some discomfort.. either my pinkie falling asleep or aching in the shoulder by the 3rd day... Always thought it was from forward-head-posture and pressure in and from the neck... it makes a lot of sense, though, if it is my shoulder itself that's gone bad.
I remember not being able to do lat pulldowns behind my neck or succesfully do deltoid pushups because of popping shoulder(s).

I'm seeing a specialist on Monday about some very painful re-alignment massage to retrain the muscles.. but if it indeed is my shoulder, that won't do a bit of good.

Popping joints... been having fun with that bit for as long as I can remember...
fingers, wrists, knees, ankles, groin, shoulders... Just sitting here writing I can feel the tingling and pressure down my arm and I'm quite certain it's not from my neck, since I was adjusted two days ago and I was not bad at all, and don't feel too off right now.
This sucks. No easy solution if it is the shoulder.

>.<

Thursday, July 12, 2007

>.<

Ok I have to post. This is too fucking stupid not to report.

So... the house that I turned down last month due to not having time to draw it.. then meeting the homeowner and him stating he still wants me to draw the house.. fine.. so we meet again and I come up with a 1st draft in no time, but it has a portion to it that doesn't flow, and it's about 400 sq-ft too large.

Well I e-mail it to the builder (the homeowner never e-mailed me so I couldn't send it to them directly as well) on what.. Tuesday, for review, and he just called to ask how I was coming along with the plan... well I FUCKING E-MAILED IT TO HIM! He never e-mailed it forward to the homeowner so now I'm meeting them all again tomorrow morning and no one has reviewed the plan ahead of time... >.< AArrgh

He is an idiot! And then he is one of these people that never seems to get into his head, that I have two phone numbers.. I accept calls into one number and dial out of another.. he ALWAYS call me at the wrong number.. ALWAYS. Also.. the local building department... REGIONAL.. for 2 years he's been calling it "region". He just somehow can't get his mouth around that "-AL" part.

He is one of these guys that used to work for one the big missionary organizations and after supervising/building his own home, that I designed, he decided to become a homebuilder with the scant knowledge he has/had.. and well.. it shows, in everything. In quality, lack of organization, etc.

Pisses me off, this shit does.

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I don't feel like writing








Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Wednesday Boredom

Here we are middle of the week. Ever since Ms.Vegas moved to, well, Vegas, there hasn't been a reason for me to go to our weekly "milonga" on Wednesdays. I worked for 5 hours today shimming and nailing some wood windows so that they had an even 1/2" reveal on the inside. That way after the walls have been drywalled and the trim carpenter comes around to case the windows, he doesn't have to score or beat down the drywall around the windows that's past the casement jamb. At that point the stucco on the outside effectively glues the window in place so he can't move it that late in the game.

Played with some video "conferencing" with Ms.Spain last night... she needs to get a webcam so I can see her while she sees me >.< Of course the second I logged onto Skype my mom attacked me asking about this and about that.... I normally keep myself logged off or as away for that very reason.

I'm bored. I don't feel like starting the remodel design right now and I've already done a few hours of gaming.. No good movies left in the theatre to go see. Oh.. well I do have to work on the next years Parade house plans.. got the initial redlines back from the Engineer.

Miss dancing - good dancing.. like with follows such as Ms.Spain and Ms.Belgium and Ms.Vegas. Long time to go before Labour Day festival in Denver >.<

Blah.

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Sunday

I ended up not going to Boulder last night. I was feeling very tired and unmotivated, so around 5-6 I laid down on the couch and feel asleep until 9(I should have left around 7 if I had gone). No big loss I reckon.

I've got a meeting at 5 today regarding the other Tuscan-style home. It's been almost comical trying to get this meeting to happen. If I haven't been out-of-town, which I have been 4-5 times this Spring/Summer; they've been.

Ta.

Few Pictures


Saturday, July 7, 2007

We All Need Space

Carlos Gardel

This tango god met his end on my name-day of June 24th. According to the National Archives of my homeland, only about 25,000 people share this name with me. Quite the coincidence, don't you think?



http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carlos_Gardel

I liked this video

Saturday Morning Groggynes

So... I got them drugs.. some Norco for pain and Cyclobenzaprin for spasm. I've taken quite a few of the Norco's but only 2 Cyclo thus far. I took the first one at lunch on Thursday.. and I don't know if it was that or if the weeks just caught up to me, but I barely made the drive home, I was so sleepy. When I did make it home I hit the bed right away at 7:30 pm and slept until 6 am. Woke up only once shortly at 3 am. The next morning I felt like I was drunk for several hours.

Last night as I got back from the Milonga I took one at 3am and I slept until 1 pm. I started moving around just now and feeling that groggyness again.

So yea... went to the milonga last night. DJ Nick was playing... a lot of good stuff but also some weird tanda compilations and way too many alternatives. He did a 4 song set of alternatives and that completely sapped my energy.. I wasn't able to recoup after that. Dances? Not a single good one.. but I wasn't feeling all that great either.. was very tired.

I'm supposed to be working in Breckenridge next week but I so would not want to... another case of me not being able to say no. And another example of not saying no.. on the way to the Milonga last night I stopped at a house where they want to design a remodel.. it's already a nightmare and I haven't even drawn a single line. She keeps wanting impossible things and doesn't seem to hear or understand why she can't have some of the things she wants. "Can't we just do <><><><>"?. "Well no... because <><><><>". "Why not"?. *sigh*
Felt bad for the husband too.. she kept putting words in his mouth and putting him in a bad spot. Wisely he kept his mouth shut the entire time, lol.

I think I need a real good massage to try and release my trapezoid/rhomboid. The muscles are hard and swollen like a coconut. Even with the Norco I don't at all feel like sitting here in front of the computer.. at least not to work. When I work I have to scootch forward and squint at the screen to make sure I start the line from the right spot, etc. When I'm writing I can sit back and just watch the screen from a distance. Keeps the shoulders more relaxed.

I hope Ms.Spain is getting some good dances. She's in the Mid-West enjoying a Tango Festival. I miss dancing with her.

Ms.Belgium had a water pipe burst above her living room ceiling and ruin most of her condo; bummer. I guess she didn't have specific renters insurance either.

I haven't heard from Ms.Vegas since the Denver Tango Festival. She left me a voicemail the day she made the trip saying she had just heard a song that reminded her of me, but I never caught the title of the song.

I might drive up to Boulder tonight for a Milonga there. It is the early-arrival milonga for the Gustavo & Giselle workshops to be held there next week. Some people are coming clear from the east-coast for the classes, although I don't see the point. Hoping for one or two good follows to show up, though. Maybe that one really tall girl that lives in Boulder will be there. She almost never drives down to Denver and she's getting to be really good. Maybe she moved though as she got done with college.

Waiting for my breakfast to arrive. I debated whether to clean the pan and to scramble some eggs (that would just have gotten stuck to the pan I ruined) or to order a meatball sandwich and two personal sized pizzas from Extreme Pizza, and E.P. won.

I'd like to go see a movie today but I don't think that'll happen. If I go to Boulder tonight I have to get a move on right after breakfast. I'm to pick up a friend from Denver on the way if I decide to go.

I'd also like to go to the Renaissance Festival; Haven't gone in 5 or 6 years, but I don't want to go alone. Got no one to go with me, though.

Ta for now.

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Wednesday, July 4, 2007

English Patient

I've had the soundtrack for the movie for a long time. I listen to it maybe once a month or so.. It's very powerful. "Swoon, I'll catch you" put me in a trance.

Keeping the topic at music.. I just thought about this again today whilst listening to all of Jewel's records while working... I really do not like artists that do not write their own music or at the very least a great portion of it.... or let's say that I can't respect them like I do those who do write their own music, because I'm sure there are artists that I like that do not write their own music.

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Dreams of an Insomniac

What is it like getting a full nights rest?
I have forgotten. Hard as I try I can't remember when I was consistently getting 7-1/2 hours of sleep each night - it's been several years for sure.

To an extent this can be credited to my lifestyle.. Tango dancing is a nocturnal pleasure. But I often also legimately work until the wee hours trying to get designs/specs/quotes done on-time.
Last 2 weeks I haven't been able to sleep due to the pain in my neck/shoulder. 2 weeks before that it was my trip to the East Coast and with the Tango dancing I was getting 3 hours per night (6 hrs few nights but in 2 shifts of 3 hrs). So like I mentioned before, one of my clients is an MD, and he finally called in 2 Rx's for me this morning. I put in a full day at work today and afterward drove down to the Safeway where I had him call them in at. I arrived at 18:15 and because it is "holiday" they had closed at 6 pm vs. the normal hour of 8 pm. The guy was standing there behind the cage playing "Eye of the tiger" from a cassette player into a telephone.... >.< Another night of no sleep incoming because of 15-minutes. Gay.

I'm sure Ms.Spain will blame me for keeping her up until 4:15 am (2:15 my time) talking on the IM and hence not getting more than 4 hrs of sleep, but even within that 4 hr timeslot I woke up once because I had to shift off of my bad shoulder - any longer would have only gotten me a sorer and stiffer shoulder this morning than what I got.

I'm glad it's raining outside.. I hope it keeps up.. it'll keep most of the people inside that run around blasting fireworks (they're illegal inside the City-limits anyway).

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Tuesday, July 3, 2007

"How often do you find the right person?"

"ONCE"

I went to see this movie at the Kimball's Twin Peaks tonight. I loved it. It's brilliant.. gritty.. in-your face kind of film.
Instead of trying to eloquently explain what the movie is about, I'll rather send you to the website where you can see a video clip and hear snippets of the songs: http://www.amazon.com/Once-Original-Soundtrack/dp/B000PFU7OO

All the original songs were in fact written and or performed by either of the lead characters or by both as duet. I couldn't find the soundtrack to it on Gomusic.ru yet, but I did buy and download one of THE FRAMES' CD's. The lead character in the movie is the front man of the band.

It's a movie I will certainly buy when I see it out on DVD... not only because I loved it... but also to watch it again with subtitles (captionings) on... the guys' thick Dublin accent and the Girl's Czheck accent caused me to miss a great deal of the dialogue.

The theater wasn't exactly crowded.. 30-40 people.. but I've never been to a movie.. or at least not for years.. that 90% of the audience did not move or get up UNTIL ALL of the credits had scrolled by and screen finally went black. Given, the Kimball's crowd is always more mature and respectful.. but the previous movies I've seen there this year.. people file out right after "Fin" and don't stay to watch the credits. The music must have stuck a chord with more people than just me :)

-.-

Girls versus Women

I copied this from a friend's MySpace bulletin:

Women vs. Girls

Girls want to control the man in their life.
Women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need controlling.

Girls yell at you for not calling them.
Women are too busy to realize you hadn't.

Girls are afraid to be alone.
Women revel in it-using it as a time for personal growth.

Girls ignore the good guys.
Women ignore the bad guys.

Girls make you come home.
Women make you want to come home.

Girls leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to call and make plans.
Women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in where he fits.

Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.
Women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.

Girls try to monopolize all their man's time (i.e., don't want him hanging with his friends).
Women realize that a lil' bit of space makes the 'together time' even more special-and goes out with her own friends

Girls think a guy crying is weak.
Women offer their shoulder and a tissue.

Girls want to be spoiled and 'tell' their man so.
Women 'show' him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate without fear of losing his 'manhood'.

Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.
Women know that was just one man.

Girls fall in love and chase aimlessly after the object of their affection, ignoring all 'signs'.
Women know that sometimes the one's you love, don't always love you back-and move on, without bitterness.

Girls will read this and get an attitude.
Women will read this and pass it on to other Grown women and their male friends.

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Monday, July 2, 2007

Monday Bloody Monday

So I had a meeting this morning with one of my clients at 8 am at Panera bread. He forgot to check his e-mail for the time so he was an hour late. Good thing is, he LOVES my design for his house. I have to admit.. I'm quite proud of it myself, I have to say.
It's 3,650 square feet on the main level and 1,200-1,400 upstairs. Basement will be around 3,400-3,500 total, but will probably not get finished for some time. This house is supposed to be part of next years Parade of Homes, too.

I might be in luck with getting some drugs for my shoulder/neck from him.. he's an MD.
I don't like drugs and avoid them like the plague.. I even had tendon re-attachment surgery under only local anesthesia.. but this shoulder/neck pain is preventing me from working productively and from sleeping. It's got to go. I might ask his for something "light".. .such as valium or something.. He was trying to prescribe all manner of drugs for me but that made me uneasy.

Well things didn't get any better from the meeting. They had, indeed, finished the tile at the Natural Dream Home but the ventilation and insulation were still a problem. So I tore some insulation out of a corner and did the ceiling myself. I also bought some duct materials and finished the exhaust vent for the sauna myself. You know the saying, right? "If you want it to be done right you do it yourself".

The materials showed up finally around 2 pm and I got them indoors and unloaded. Very little damage but damage nonetheless. I'll be working on this sauna for the next 2-4 days to finish it on time and just to move on.

Oh, the strangest thing happened too this morning at Panera. A client whom I had basically turned down due to not having enough time to work on his house plans was there.. and he actually isn't in such a big hurry as the builder had claimed (which is why I hung up my gloves on the project), and still wants me to design his house. How about that. Second hand information is always half of a handful of shit.

I may need to re-activate my pre-pay cellphone or get another cell phone from another company than At&t. I never have any reception on jobsites and others do. I do know that part of it is due to the weak internal antenna on the Nokia 9500 that I use, but the other, very legit reason, is that AT&T's towers are in shit condition. When AT&T turned to Cingular they stopped maintaining their towers and they fell in disrepair.. reception has reduced to half of what it used to be.. maybe they'll start fixing them now that they're AT&T again. Verizon and Sprint keep getting reception where I do not. I think I'll end this post here and call 611.

Ta.

Sunday, July 1, 2007

Playing with HTML in blogspot

So yea... since I don't know HTML.. I've been playing with it on Blogspot. Editing isn't as easy as it is with Myspace, but I'm getting there. I've managed to enlarge the title box so it encompasses the title picture and I've widened the text box so that there are more characters per line. I just managed to change the font too to a one that isn't otherwise "supported". It's called Papyrus. How does it look? Inviting comments (from what.. all of 1-2 people that read this? lol).

M